Does anyone else feel like they have to guilt trip for ?

We haven't done it in over a week, and for the past year or so it seems like we only have when i tell him i feel like he's pushing me away. He'll be all i don't want to, i'm tired etc before hand, and then i tell him how i feel, cos i hardly see him even though we live together (he's always fixing or modding something) and then whoomph he wants it. Then i feel empty cos i've got what i wanted by quilt tripping him and he's non the wiser. Does anyone else have to do this? Should i end it? I lvoe him, can't imagine life without him, and i know i'm being really selfish, but i could easily go out and have no feeling without having to pretend i'm happy living with someone who seemingly doesn't love me. He says he does, and when we actually spend time together he acts like he does, and he normally makes me happy, i'm just sick of being ignored and then expected to be happy with guilt .